Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Ramblings


My dear reader Boo Boo Ninja (Hey babe) was asking me through one of the comments about how I go started on makeup. It is kind of a difficult post for me to write because honestly I'm quite embarrassed by the pictures I'm posting here. These pictures are at the lowest and highest points of my life. Let me explain and ramble a bit.

I wasn't really into makeup before I gave birth. For an only child who has a low pain threshold, my pregnancy was scary and to be honest a little traumatic. My DS was born one month premature. I had complications and I had to deliver him before he was ready.

Pregnancy was hell on my hormones. I already had adult acne and my pregnancy made it worst. I had acute acne all over my face, chin and back. It continued on after. Do you know how depressing it is to always have painful pimples on your face that never went away. The moment one subsides another two would pop up somewhere.

The first few years of being a mom was both wonderful and over-whelming. It was also the time where I had no confidence at all and looked the worst. I was very unhappy, stressed and depressed. 



One day I just got so sick of the self-pity and depression that I decided I needed to do something for myself. A good friend recommended me a trust worthy dermatologist and I decided to get my acne problem looked into once and for all. I also started an exercise regime for myself. I never looked back.


That was also the period I discovered how makeup can boost a woman's self-confidence and hide flaws. I went out and bought myself a full coverage foundation (I still remember the brand Covermark!) to cover up my acne. It wasn't the best idea then but from then to now I think my makeup decisions and application improved for the better.

So that is how I got interested in makeup.

I look at what I have done throughout these years, I consider myself blessed.

I always believe that you hold the power to change yourself if you really want to. Don't make excuses for yourself. If you want it, go and do it and get it for yourself. Life is way too short to regret the what ifs. If we don't do the things that make us happy, what is life for?


35 comments:

  1. I have been silent reader for past 1.5 years... I almost tear when reading this post! Thanks Jacq for been such an inspire to women out there including me ! I also have a son whom is 4 years old, your story couldn't be so real to me ! I also started taking care my face by put on skin care and make up after gave birth. Since then, I never looked back!
    By the way, your DS way SO chubby !! Once again, thanks for all your great posts, please keep in it up ! :)

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    1. Hi Chia Me, thank you so much for leaving me a comment. Mommies unite! Your little boy must be a handful like mine. I'm glad to hear you are taking care of yourself. We mommies must send the time to look after ourselves too then we are able to take care of others. Can you imagine as a premmie he was only 1.6 kg when he was born. After two months the little guy just drank so much milk and he became my very own Michelin baby. I miss how he was when he was a toddler.

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  2. I've been struggling with adult acne too. When it's bad I don't even want to leave the house - dang hormones!

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    1. I know what you mean Emmy, my acne is coming back and I have been getting really awful pimples around my chin area.

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  3. Seriously, adult acne sucks big time! This is a great inspiring post, Jacqueline. I agree with you. We have the power to change what we don't like about ourselves. Make up helps but having great skincare will help resolve the crux of the problem. There's nothing better than having awesome skin.

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    1. Thank you Kristie :) Awesome skin is something all of us strive for. After having my skin stabilize after so many years of acne makes me treasure how it feels to have good skin. I really envy those girls with no skin issues. But I think reality of life is all of us have something we grapple with and don't like. It is how we move on and not get hung up about things.

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  4. Jacq, this is a very inspiring post that further strengthen the statement '世上没有丑女人,只有懒女人'.

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    1. Thank you Ruby, I was looking through all my old photos and trying to find those that aren't so bad.

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  5. Hi Jacq,
    Thanks for taking your time to post about this. It's a very inspiring post and I have to say that you look so much gorgeous now and looks so much younger compared to years ago when you just gave birth. I admire your motivation and will :)

    xx Meryl

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    1. Thank you Meryl, hehe I also think I have come a long way.

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  7. Hello!
    Been a silent reader for some time.. Posted a comment just now on my iphone but i think it didnt go through :(

    Wanna say that this post really inspires me and i really appreciate how you took the courage to post this!
    Simple awesome :)
    -Lorraine

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    1. Thank you Lorraine, I am surprised I got such lovely comments from all of you. I am very lucky to be surrounded by such supportive readers like you.

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  8. Thanks for sharing with us your past, Jacq. Look at you now! You've matured into a sexy beautiful lady! So full of sunshine and beauty and self-confidence! Well done!
    What a great post, not just for being inspiring but also for letting us readers into your personal life/journey. It brings you closer to us. Thanks!

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    1. Hey Nonno, thank you so much . I am so glad to have such supportive readers like yourself.

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  9. Your DS is one insanely cute baby and so are you too Jacq!
    Thanks so much for sharing such an inspiring story. It can really be so hard to pull yourself out of a rut when everything feels like it can't get any worse. Hats off to you for being so determined and brave!
    xoxo
    Gwen

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    1. As much as I prefer my DS now, independent and cheeky, I do miss how he was when he was a tot, he was the cutest thing in my eyes. I still run through his old videos just to hear hum babble. They grow up so fast! Gwen, thanks for your kind comments and support, to really means a lot to me.

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  10. What a heartwarming story!! Your son is soooo adorable and you've grown into a beautiful mama, too. My best wishes to both of you!

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    1. Thank you Claire :)your kind comments and support, means a lot to me.

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  11. Hi Jacq,

    An inspiring and courageous sharing!

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    1. Thank you Jessica! Thanks for taking the time to leaving me such a kind comment.

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  12. Hi Jacqueline! I just wanted to say first of all: thank you for sharing this story! I thought it was very sincere and was nice to get to know you more and understand where your makeup story started! Also, bravo to you for sharing these pics! I struggled with acne all through my teens years, had a brief repreive, then was hit hard again in recently years :/ it's always a struggle but just to think that you could change your life and appearance that much is inspiring! I really would like to start eating healthier and exercising more to flush out toxins--I think that would help a lot with my recent breakouts!

    You are gorgeous! :D Thanks again for sharing!!

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    1. Becca, thank you for taking the time to leave me such a supportive comment. The lowest point and also my turning point was when I was at the pharmacy after enduring an excruciating facial. I had many pimples that were raw and bleeding, the SA there gently suggested that I should perhaps change my diet and introduced me to a herbal tea. I don't think the herbal tea helped much but it got me started on my journey. My acne is coming back too because I stopped taking birth control pills. I didn't think I should take them for too long. Right now I am taking it as it comes as see how it goes. But it can be very depressing sporting acne and having people stare at them and asking if I was stressed out.

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  13. As the others have said - what an inspiring post!

    You know there's nothing embarrassing at all. You look so much better having taken care of yourself so well plus all the confidence! On the other hand, I definitely looked way better before I had my girl. Now I'm almost 20kg heavier than I was then. And looking at old photos made me depressed. I don't have acne but there was a period of time I did have problems with my skin, so I understand.

    kudos to you. You're right. I need to get back in shape! I used to work out so often that I am really ashamed of myself now.

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    1. Karelessly in Love, don't get depressed okay just start doing something. It can be something very small but you will be changing something for the better. When I decided to start getting back in shape, I brisked walked for 15 minutes. I gradually increased my stamina. The change happens really slowly but don't give up. In our fast pace society, we expect things to happen quickly. But starting slow will actually help you build good habits and increase the chances of you sticking to what you commit yourself to do. You know, as I was looking through my pictures when my DS was small, I realised that I had very few pictures of myself. I was just too ashamed to take pictures of myself.

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    2. You're so right. Even if I have no time for a full work out, 15 minutes is good too.

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    3. I know the common excuse for most people is that they do not have the time but seriously we need to make time to take care of our bodies. Especially as moms when we take care of ourselves we are in better position to take care of our family.

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  14. Thanks for sharing your story. It's great to hear makeup being used to empower yourself and boost your self-confidence, instead of using it as a mask like many do.

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    1. Thank you Joyce :) I know, many ladies still think foundation is used to mask everything. Less is definitely more appealing.

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  15. Thank you for sharing your heartfelt story Jacq! And i'd just like to say that DS was so cute when he was a baby!! I only started getting into make-up in my late twenties, so i still go get teased these days by my family for being "vain". But my reasons for it are pretty similar. It gives me confidence (despite everyone telling me that natural is always better) and i enjoyed the process of learning about makeup and how to apply it (still learning and discovering every day in fact!) It also makes me look and feel more professional when i go to work. I feel good when i look good! And i suppose that applies for all of us. What they say is true - there are no ugly women, only lazy ones.

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    1. Haha I'm the super vain one in my workplace because I'm the only one who puts on makeup. I agree with what you said about feel good when you look good. I feel like that too.

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  16. Thanks for sharing your story. Thanks for being honest! I am usually silent, but now I just had to write this. I appreciate honesty and truth, and this post is so far the best. Honestly! That is the function of makeup. To hide imperfections!
    Sandra

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    1. Thank you Sandra. I was not expecting the kinda reaction I am getting with this post and I just very happy. Sometimes it is worth taking the risk to put yourself out there.

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